This year I have gone through a lot..it hard to believe I've come out as strong as I have.
I thought of giving up so many times, but something has helped me get to where I am.

Throughout the course of the year, I have:


Watched my family fall apart.

Been to another country.

Had my heart broken..picked it up and attempted to piece it back together, only to have it smashed to pieces again..and did it all over again.

Learned what kind of people my "friends" really were.

Been compeletly and utterly alone.

Had my first job.

Got robbed.

Saw one of my favorite bands [Underoath] twice.

Been drunk for the first time.

Had the courage for the first time to actually take my own life.

After sitting by myself all day, I was forced to really learn who I was and was able to correct some of my flaws and change for the better.

Never gave up on my best friend, even after all the shit we've been through.

Grew as a photographer.

Had the greatest fish ever, who lived for almost seven months [r.i.p.].

Spent more money than I ever have before..

Been able to talk to people more.

Started talking to someone I never thought I would even see again.

But the most important thing:
I have loved somebody more than I ever thought imaginable. I never knew I could have so much love inside of me. No matter what happens, what this person has done/will do to me, I will love them. For the first time, I have loved someone UNCONDITIONALLY. And coming to terms with the fact that I am still in love with this person has helped me get past daily obstilcles..


I'm sure 2006 probably will not be as much of an impact on me personally. In '05 there was a lot of shit, and a lot of reflecting that I had done. Hopefully in '06 I'll be able to go out and have fun as the changed person that I am. Maybe I'm not completely changed, I do relapse on to old habits..but hopefully I might be able to grow more as a person in this upcoming year..